Tuesday, August 21, 2012

Garage Sale and Tears

Our garage sale is next week! AAHHHH! We've gotten a lot of donations and have a lot of stuff for the sale. I'm starting to move everything over to our friends home where the sale is being held. Their house is at a much better location than ours and it's where we held our sale last year. It will be held next Thursday the 30th, Friday the 31st and Saturday the 1st. Today I was busily going through some of the kids clothes, focused on getting organized, when I came across this snowflake sleeper. I immediately burst into tears as I held it up to my face, remembering holding him while he was wearing it. I remembered the smell of his hair, the sight of him sucking his thumb and me kissing his cheek. I missed our boys so terribly in that moment...I miss them everyday, we all do. But this snuck up on me unexpectedly. In the grind of paperwork, applications, getting references, making appointments, redoing documents and getting so frustrated and saddened that this is not the adoption timeline we want, I sometimes miss the moments that allow me to remember what we've experienced already and to dream of what will be. I needed that moment.

3 comments:

  1. Praying for you guys especially this next weekend with your sale :D So excited for you guys :D Praying for speedy timelines from now on and favor in other peoples schedules that involve your case in the months to follow.

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  2. I can't believe you put the picture up!!! Now I'm crying! it's one thing to hear you describe it but another to see that beautiful face myself and see him looking so cuddly and adorable. What a journey. Sometimes there are just no words to describe the process of adoption. My heart breaks for your longing and rejoices in knowing this time WILL end and it will end well with two beautiful boys coming home.

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  3. There arent' really words... but prayers. Thinking of you guys.

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