Thursday, June 16, 2011

It's not me

Some days I feel so angry that God took Jivenson from us before we even had the chance to have him with us. Some days I just feel so sad and don't want to see another human being. Some days I feel lost. I take each day as it comes and try not to think about tomorrow. With my two girls that's hard to do. Yesterday I was a mess but today was good, I saw a friend and her kids and she even took the girls for a few hours so I could have some time. I smiled and even laughed a little.
Any strength I feel or trust I feel in God's plan for Jivenson and for us, is not me. It's not Jessica. I'm telling you. It's the Holy Spirit, it's the prayers of those around us who loved Jivenson and love us.

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